PLAN 101

I have a plan: first I'm going to move on and forget about him but how is that possible?! I have a backup plan. I'm going to make my diet my priority so that when he see me again he will be amazed and stunned at my beauty :) then I'll never going back to him until he beg me till death. :) I'm tired of waiting for him. If someone comes I'll not ignore him anymore. I'll be open and available :) Great Idea? :) I'm tired of waiting for him and nothing really happens. I'm going to stop living my life as a fantasy. I need to be strong and not give up to any temptation. I'll have revenge as a new way to move on. :) I know that sucks but it is the only thing that gets me motivated. :)

Dreamy Hero

"Self-confidence is nothing but a lie. No one knows where my real wounds are." That was a line from the song "dreamy hero". I wanted to tell him that I am really hurting whenever he brings up the topic of love especially loving a different person. I just wanted to cry and be worn out just to ease the pain I'm feeling. How can one person love another person as much as I am loving him. Am I stupid? Urgh.. I miss him. I miss his tender words. I miss the way he cares for me. I miss the way we talk and argue a lot. It never tends to be boring with him.

I wake up everyday, putting a smile on my face as if nothing was hurting me. I tell everyone I am okay but the truth is, I am hurting like hell craving for you, I want you so badly. But I guess, everything ends there. I hope my hurting will too.

Hangover

Yesterday, I had a fun day with my two of my other closest friend. We had a little drink and we really had a great time together. I miss them so much. Also, when I was with them I thought I lost my cellphone so I was really panicking and didn't know what to do. First person that I thought of was HIM. I was worried that we will never talk again. I remembered that a few days ago, I memorized his no. just because I was amazed that our no. almost looked the same. :)))) So I texted him using my friend's no. and blah blah blah. We texted each other until 12 mn. :))))) so I was hoping when I wake up the following day that he already texted me but NO. No text message. I waited the whole day, I felt terrible. :(( I was sad and lonely and depressed. As ate and I were watching partner, He texted but I don't have any load. So today I texted him and stillllll no reply.... Waiting in Vvvaaaiiinn. I hate it. I hate him :|:|:((((

Shameless Days

As I browse through some people on my facebook, I accidentally saw the pictures of the only two boys I have ever had feelings for. And as much as it hurts, I am sill inlove with the other one. As much as I would like to erase and move on with all the painful moments that had happened I just can't seem to forget about it. Was it because I was hurt and still expects to somehow continue the fantasy that had never even existed? :| Uh, I just don't want to talk about it. END.

A lot of wants and no time for needs

This day will be over soon and I hope my greediness will too. I have a lot of thing I want to do before classes starts and I haven't told my mom about my glasses. I need a new one but there are some other things NO! A lot more other things I want to ask my mom for. First, my new cellphone that she promised to buy me this month of May. Second, perming my hair. Due to my grandmother's wish I had a haircut so I need to prolong my waiting for another month to get my hair permed. Third, new shoes for the upcoming Fashion Week my friend has invited me. Fourth, new school supplies. I don't know where to begin in choosing the right study supplies that is intended for college. And MOSTLY, my DIET. My life right now is mainly focused on my DIET. It is becoming a habit, a good one though but I am becoming more impatient in the results. It's only been a week and it feels like I've been doing this forever. Nevertheless, I hope I can see some changes already. Oh well, I just need to wait, losing weight can't be achieved overnight.

First Day of Diet

Well, I've tried this diet a week ago. No rice diet. I succeeded, however there were a lot of birthdays that happened and I can't control what I was eating. So today will be the official day that I will start my diet. I need to lose weight in a matter of a month so I will be sexy when school starts already. :"> I promise not to eat a lot when I go out. Well I hope I can achieve this. I need to jog everyday and no rice everyday and if I can do it, I would try to not eat dinner anymore :) If I can I'll just eat one meal a day :) Well I hope I can do this :)

After a year...

Hey, I am here again after 1 year and GUESS WHAT. I am still not over that guy. I just saw him yesterday during my enrollment. I really don't know what I have gotten myself into but in just few months left we will be in the same university, same college and it just doesn't end there we are having the same course. :| I am supposed to hate this but guess what, I am actually excited and happily terrified with this. I am sooo having a looong hang over with him. I can't get over him. Anyway, still two years have passed and I still love watching tv series. I am watching GLEE right now. :)))))

Something new had invaded my life right now. KOREA. For the past several months, this has been my inspiration to strive harder in my studies. I want to study in Korea and go to several places I've seen on watching BOF and My Girl. Most likely 63 building and Namsan Tower. I also wanna visit Jeju Island. I must be crazy but I love being crazy about it. It boosts me up and I am so scared to disappoint myself so I am willing to study harder and strive more so I can go to Korea. :">:">

Anyways, I am going tow watch Full House. Gonna update this soon. :">